First Post and first blog

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Guess i outdo myself this time and created a blog...i used to think blog are stupid and why would ppl wanna post their daily life stories on the net for ppl to comment on...i guess sometimes ppl just wanna rant about their life and need ppl to comment on it for them to feel better

Anyway why would i wanna create a blog in the first place??I guess its time for me to leave a imprint of how i was from the past till now and i guess time have caught up with me after all these years...i've been living in my own "happy" world obvious of all around me ...i own a diary since 1988 given to me by my form teacher @ sch ..its a small green book with a rabbit on the cover and i have been using it as my diary for the past 19 years....entries are rare...ranging from 1-3 entires in 3 month to 1-2 entires a year but i do update it as and when i feel like it or have the mood to write on it .....

Lets talk about my youth times...since young i've always been defensive about myself in everything i do...especially when teamwork is needed i will always pave a backdoor or a backup plan inwhich if something fails me and me alone will be able escape however my fren/teammate/collegue is not in my "escape" plan. Therefore when i was young maybe 10-15 i'm label a person who only cares about himself and never spare a thought for others.....but let me ask you guys blogger something ... lets say ur young u only have 2 dollar to buy urself a large fries @ macdonald to eat n ur hungry.. u r with 3 frens who never order anything and they keep taking ur fries to eat ...what will u do during tat time... for me i choose to cover my fries and refrain them from taking..thus i was label selfish ...i could go on the lists of things i was label selfish but i guess all have been the past and i already let it go back in times and the "Now" me is better

Since young i'm the only child in the family i have the privilege of having my own toys my own room and my own personal space. I have been brought up in the way that i must always have backup in life... i.e money. Whenever i see my friends end up borrowing money from loanshark , or friends i keep asking myself ..why the hell would this had happen .. why go beyond ur comfort zone in the cash department for a moment of folly or joy which ever make you do it.... be it a investment , gamble or even relationship or friendship giving a 100% to it will bring you pain if they choose to backfire on you...there isnt a 100% thing in life , i seen it from so many people but they still choose to try their luck and they fell deeper into the hole... i do not wish to be like this... maybe BECAUSE i dun give 100% in anything i do .. i was not been "welcome" in anything i do as well ..again :(

I believe in putting urself in the first priority in everything you do... why? u may ask ..am i egoist who only care about myself ..... YES i fucking admit I fucking do and i dun fucking care how you say about me ... WHY would i help others when so many ppl are fucking not doing a shit ... when i walk ard interchange on a weekend ..there's always lots of student asking for cash donation ...i admit the last actual donation i did was more 7 years ago...after that i never really wanna do it anymore ....Why? well Singapore have always been a "high end" country ... more than 60% of its population are in the upper living class and i'm a low-mid class citizen.....WHY the fucking hell those donation are targeted at us the lower class citizen while the upper class with their car are getting the miss while we who took the local transport have to donate for the sake of the older ppl ...the disabled or even donate for the sake of donating ?. This is one emotional barrier i couldnt get over... the rich get richer while the poor remain poor.... Before you vent ur anger on me...i do care about the old and needy or the disable and i always help them if they have some problem if i saw them when i was out like helping them up a bridge or crossing the road its just that i dun "TRUST" those donation drive.... all their directors are filthy rich and have more then 2 cars....surely with their status and money and their care for the old the needy or the disabled I'm fucking pretty sure they would have donated at least 10% of their money to help out but so far in singapore i never seen such kind rich ppl except in history book ... during the 1880s - 1940s era... -_- .. i guess modern people lack the bonding the the past people have..

Enough of the past me....its time for the "NOW" me :) ... I'm still the happy go lucky chap that people know me since day 1 ... nothing have changed .. if you know me at 1997 ... i'm still the same person at 2007 ... i dun believe in changing my view of life yet as stress is a disease/weakest link to me ... enjoying life the way i want to is the way to keep myself off stress and i'm happy to say so far in my life i have yet to encounter major setback big enuff to call extreme stress that will make me break down in tears. I believe in making big money for the future but i dun believe in working too hard for it... one have 80 years to live ... i dun intend to overheat myself for my future to enjoy myself when i was old with money to do whatever i wan when i'm past my prime. I believe in moderation... a process which you work/enjoy at the same time without stressing too much on either side thru out your life so you will never had the thinking life sux or work sux or how you never enjoy your childhood or adult life....but i guess Singapore is never a place for my ideal to work out....seeing the kids nowaday have to learn so much things and the standard of living rising as much as tax they put on u.....i must be crazy to harbour such hope/ideal can survice till now

I guess its time to end my first blog...its quite long and quite alot of grammer mistake....but i dun really care... blog shld be in ur own words and not a exam which ur graded on ...if someone were to tell me my english sux ...the first thing i will tell the person is go home and Fck ur mother __ , this is a personal blog ... you have no right to comment on my spelling or my grammers and i dun fucking care if ur a teacher or some A level student who excel in studies ....to me ur juz only human...

Good Luck and Good Bye !